LET'S START OFF RiGHT :)

Hey world! The 1st official blog from Mz. Reeves herself :) Well so everyone isn't confused on who they are reading, my real name is Ciara. I was born in Willingboro, Nj but I was raised in Bristol, Pa. As of now I live in trenton with my parents and my boyfriend Derrick, he prefers D.j. ( whateverrrrr! ha ) of more than a year who I absolutely adore, ha :) Right now I am in my second year of school at Peirce College in Center city Philly. Though in college, I am still undecided on what I really want to do with my life. I've switched majors 3 times and right now I'm thinking about changing again. Yes I'm pretty indecisive and I hate to say it.

Anyway, eventually it will have to come up but I am expecting my first child in the middle of January, yes I am young and about to be a mother. To make things even more complicated this isn't my first pregnancy. I was pregnant in '06 but unfortunately had a miscarriage. I told myself I wouldn't let myself get pregnant again but here we are another year later and I am almost 7 months. Like I tell everyone, this was another " unplanned blessing " :)

With my pregnancy came a maturity level that I was unsure I would be able to handle. I'll be the first one to tell you I loved to drink. If me and my boyfriend heard anything about a party or a place with alcohol, or anything that had to deal with the fact we'd be drunk, we were there in ol' Bertha! ( my bf's not so dependable car ). Also, before I found out I was pregnant for a second time, I was smoking legally and illegally ( if you get my drift ) heavily. I think I mostly did things like that just because I was still hurting inside from the miscarriage and I just wanted to " rebel ". I haven't mentioned me and my mother have a very difficult relationship. It seems like me and her never agree on anything but she will be the first person I run to for advice. At the time before I was pregnant, I didn't want to deal with her and my best way to get her pissed off is do things she didn't like. But now that I am pregnant I guess I am finally using my head and don't necessarily need those things to get by in life. I've got a baby to take care of. All my time and energy is going to be put into a child and I'm not going to have time to you kno go out and have the time of my life like I used too. It is something I just have to live with and I know regardless of how people feel about my situation I am going to make it. I feel like I'm at a good place in my life ( even though my ass is broke! ).

So as of now I only go to class two days a week and I have 2 online classes. They started to shorten my workload just because of the baby. I don't have a job, well if you want to call me babysittin my brother Dante's kids than okay. My brother has 2 beautiful daughters Alicia who is 2 and Tiana who is 5 months now. I never expect my brother to pay me anything to watch my nieces because they are family and I don't need to be bribed just to watch my own nieces. Regardless if he paid me or not I would still watch the girls for him. He gives me like $25 dollars to watch them for like 4 or 5 hours b4 their mom, my good friend, Melissa picks them up. I appreciate the money a lot, so much I find it easy to spend it on little things. I know I better start saving it up on a serious note. D.J. isn't financially set where he wants to be either so it doesn't help that I am not helping him contribute to this child as of now. I just hope he realizes how much I really do appreciate all he does for his family. I am glad to know that my son or daughter is going to have a hard working father.

But other than that I barely have a social life like I used to not only because of the things my friends do, but I try my best to stay away from certain people who just start drama. I'm gonna be a mom and I sure as hell don't wanna hear about some shit that happened years ago in high school or someone is mad at me. Nope, sorry, don't have time, kiss my ass, and have a nice life. I think one of the reasons I've secluded myself is because some of my old friends just don't interest me anymore. I wanna do more than just drink and smoke and sit on someones porch or watch tv in someones house. To the people who have cars most of them just waste gas driving around cause they're " bored " . Some of my really good friends are away at school, we keep in touch you kno the AiM and MySpace and all but I wish I could see them more often.

Well I guess that's it for now. I'll probably update tomorrow cause I always have something to say. We'll see if anything interesting happens tomorrow. Other than that ; thanks for reading. Hope I kept you entertained. . . Love ya! - Ciara