OH WOW, THAT MAKES ME FEEL GOOD.

Hey. Well I don't really know how to start this blog tonight. There are some things that are really getting to me. I don't know whether it's the fact I'm pregnant and I'm getting to the point where I'm just so emotional or people are just being rude.

I just feel like people judge me as soon as they find out that I'm pregnant. For example, I just recently got in contact with a friend of mine and you know I haven't talked to her since maybe 10th grade I suppose. I told her what was going on with my life, leaving out the fact I was pregnant, I just figured I'd surprise her. She comes to my house and she's like " Omg, your pregnant? Ugh, what are we gonna do now? " Basically implying that I can't do shit, I can't have fun just because I'm pregnant. She made me feel like I wasted her time because I can't drink or smoke or do anything that involves " partying ". Its people like her that make me realize how glad I got pregnant. At least I know now who my true friends are and believe me there's only a few.

Another thing that has really got me upset is when people don't understand how much this pregnancy effects me. I'll tell people " Oh my back hurts, my feet are swollen, I feel like I have no energy ". Someone in particular close to me is all " You don't do anything. All you do is go to school 2 times a week and then you come home. What are you complaining about?" I just get frustrated when people just look at me and automatically think I'm lazy. I know I don't do much to people but it is hard carrying an extra person on you all day everyday. I guess people don't realize I keep up with this big ass house I live in. Most of the cleaning everything with this house is done by me. I watch my nieces, I help my family out a lot. Maybe that's not much to people but I work my ass trying to do as much as I can.

I don't know. I just don't what to think or how to re-act to it. So I guess I'll just end my sob story. I already feel emotional. All I can do is look forward to tomorrow. Hopefully everything gets better. Love ya! Ciara